Recorded: 2013
Lyrics
Selfish Mind, Selfish Thoughts
I'd give away everything I've got
Just to grab ahold of one single truth
I'll wave goodbye to the rest of my youth
Just to learn one single thing
I call outside of my brain
I'll drive a wedge, I'll grab the edge, I see it now
I'll pull myself up to the ledge somehow
Its time to return to my original state
The one I left when I took the bait
I don't believe all the things I told myself was real...
BackStory
Written & Recorded in 2010 as "Selfish Mind" and re-recorded in 2013 as "Selfish Thoughts"
...pulling yourself up to the ledge probably comes from the Twilight Zone where the ballerina and soldier etc. are trapped in a black room trying to figure out how to get out... the most direct appropriation of Sartre by Rod Serling fer sure,,,
...Fighting your own mind,, not believing the things you told yourself,, seems to go back to the opening of the book 'Be Here Now' when Dick Alpert is watching his jet and boat and mansion all disintegrate and wondering if he is dying himself or just the illusion of himself he's attached to...
...as a rare exclusive thing,, Thrill Jockey have the original version of this song on Itunes now in its extended form.. this is definitely the longest ever released HolySons song at 9:21 >> Check it!
https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/fact-facer-bonus-track-version/id915956181